Amazing Nite

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Clueless

Really donno what am i going to do next. I fear that I might not being able to focus well on my studies. SPM is coming sooner and sooner. About 3 months left. Omgosh.. Really scaring. I cant imagine how will I feel when SPM is just tomorrow. I really will be very very nervous. When I was in Form 3, I doesn't really study cause at that time I just aim for straight A's but never try to do my best. That was me in Form 3. But this time, I know that SPM is really important for me because the results can determine my route in the future. I fear that I didnt try my best again and take this exam like just a piece of cake. Aiming for straight A's but didnt try the best is like aiming for shit. Haiz... that's me. Siew Ping's bday is next tuesday and is really coming soon. Me and my friends had planned to go to eat either in this sat or sun but we are pointless to go where to eat SEAFOOD which is Wei Ting's favourite. She's so energetic when we talk about eating seafood. She's so funny. I really dont know what to buy for her leh. Im really a hopeless friend. I no I no. HEHE. But our way of thinking is totally different ba. But this time I really wanna put my best to think of what to buy for her. Coz this is the last year we study in the same class and in the same school although with different uniform. She's a prefect okay! Haha and im the naughty and talkative girl in the class. Today, I just indirectly say about my class book monitor for not helping me to pass my report card to my form teacher. I said she is irresponsible for not doing her job. After class over, she volunteer to help me to pass the report card tomorrow to the teacher. I smiled and said never mind and told her that I will passed myself. I feel guilty after that. These days I just knot control my temper. Haiz.. Im really bad. Next time I think I should have think more before I said people and I confess that me myself is not a responsible girl. I always dare to point out people's weaknesses but never think of myself. I really wanna change and I had promised myself. YEah... I will upload my blog again to write about the celebration of Siew Ping's bday. This week she is the spotlight in my gang. HAHAHA

It's been a week I didn't update my blog coz of my pc sent to hospital for two days plus after reformating my pc, the whole system is really slower than a tortoise. It was found that one of my CPU's ram slot was spoilt and the ram left 186 MB only. So now can u imagine how slow it is rite now my pc. That day my pc got attacked by virus its becoz of me filled with full of curiousity about a video "TWO GIRLS ONE CUP" and so I just went into a website to watch it. Really ah malang tidak berbau. That website coincidently contains harmful virus which i didn't realise it until when i closed the website. Unlucky ho? In this week, no special incidence happening around my life so there's nothing for me to write in my blog. So paiseh lo ek jie and siew ping for letting you guys to feel disappointed everytime you guys on my blog expecting that I did write sumthing in it. Hehe. Oh ya that day my brother { Shelby } got accused by one of our frens and she felt so down. But last nite, they found out who the culprit really is and my brother received apologise from tat peole who accused her. Phew.. luckily she's out of the problem rite now. My brother just accepted their apology and forgive them. Kind ho my brother. Haha. Siew Ping's { 12 yrs beloved friend } bday is coming soon. It's on 1st of July { Gawai Day }. We planned to go out to eat next saturday but she just feel shy and blew it off saying that no need to celebrate. I know her very well. She said that she dun want becoz she feel shy but actually she wants us to celebrate with her ma. RIte not siew ping? After reading this and if you agree to me den you jus call me la.. HAHAHA. I planned to buy her a Vincci watch but my this friend really quite troublesome. She don't like it coz that's not her style. She likes that kind of steel watch { LAU SIK STYLE }. Me and her style of wearing and things that we like are totally different but what i can't understand is we still can remain our friend relationship for 12 yrs and we keep it strong. Salute to us. When I asked her what she wants but she never wanna tell me. I no there's sumthing that she likes. Im really a failure friend coz im not very sure what is her favourite things and what she dislikes the most. Shhh.. dont tell her later im the one who kena BIG BOM. I tink i mostly end up buying bra or panty for her if I really cant find what she likes. I'll end up here and update again my blog to write what i've decided to buy for her. My budget is only RM 1. Really selfish ho.

Bad Day

I wonder I have to face books for how many more decades.. maybe for the rest of my life. Who knows???



Today in school the first period is chemistry. Im for sure very nervous when my chemistry teacher, En. Solomon give back the papers to us. Honestly, I dont feel very satisfy with my chemistry marks because Im really careless and clumsy. I missed out 2 question that worth 5 marks and 3 marks respectively. And Im angry at Val cause she told me that she dont know how to do the chemistry paper and not sure about her answers. But lastly she got the highest in the class. What is that suppose to mean. Nah, I just dont give a damn anymore about her cause she's been repeating this attitude again and again towards everybody. Sometimes, I wondered if she was really lack of self-confidence or just wanna pretend to be an idiot and just wanna be the most innocent among our friends. Ok stop talking about her. After recess, I go on with my moral class. Now another thing that makes me sick of exams. Again, I got 53 marks. Cause of what? Its because there are questions that all my moral nilai are correct but my FORMAT is wrong. That all questions total up are 25 marks and my marks just gone like that. I feel like stamping my feet at that time to release my anger. However I managed to control it. I told my friends if I had written it correct then I will get more marks than just a 53 marks paper. But my brother told me that there's no IF in this world. His words sound logic BUT BUT BUT...haiz jus forget about it. About my history and english paper, I dont have any comment cause I dont really spend much time on them especially history. Hehe. So, I dont deserved the high marks even though I wish I could have it. Tomorrow. I wonder how many marks I can get. Yesterday bad. Today worse. I really dont hope tomorrow is the worst because if it's really going to be the worst, I really will get more and more disappointed. I might be ending up not going to school on Thursday and Friday because of the disappointment. Haha. What an idiot of me getting upset over spilled milk. Haiz.. just forget about it. Remember always make our smiles freeeee...

EXAMS ... EXAMS

Yesterday, I saw a rainbow ;D. I always think that if i see rainbow means that day will be my lucky day and then the next day will be quite unlucky. It doesnt mean that Im trying to become superstitious or belief in sumkind of what stupid thoughts, but I've been observing and felt that my life really goes that way. And its true. Today is the first day go back to school after having 2 weeks holiday and it means that I only left probably about 4 months left before the real SPM. Trial SPM will be erm.... one and a half months again which is in August 2008. It's coming soon and as time flies by Im getting more and more stress. Haiz.. really donno how to fix my study plan. Oh ya. Today, I've got a few of my test papers back and the results aren't really satisfying for me cause my statistic had dropped compared to the mid-term results which is in March. I think I need to work harder for the next test but I dont have any confidence whether I can work it out or not. Hehe. When I went to add maths tuition tonight suddenly one of the staff from sri sarjana, Mr. X [forgot what's his surname] came into our class and said EXAM tonight. Oh gosh. I just hate to hear this word. I haven prepare anything yet and my mind are completely blank about some formulas. So the whole night, I have to struggle myself to think about the formulas and ways to solve the problems. Its kinda torturing. But at last, I give up and discussed with Winnie and look up for my books hoping that I can dig up some formulas and ways to solve certain questions. The questions honestly are HARD for me. Im really not looking forward to look at my marks on that paper and dun wish that Miss Felicia will mark it. I hope she don't get disappointed with my marks. Hahaha. Tomorrow school again and have to face my nervousNESS again during giving back test papers. But this is definitely not worst than getting SPM results. Hahaa.

This morning about 3 am, I accompanied my brother to send his friend back home. At that time, the roads are silent. Just a few cars on the road. I like the breeze at that time which is cold. Actually I get to try driving the car back home but my brother dont allow. What a slip of chance. Haiz. But never mind next time I will get that chance which is coming soon. Maybe this December I will start attending driving lessons and learn driving. Yes. Tonight I go to physics tuition and I have a test. I dont really know how to answer the questions. I have discussed with my friends and search for answers in the book. Are there counted as cheating? Hehe. Anything la cause I dont care anymore. My crush didnt go to tuition. Haiz. Didnt get to see him but never mind. I planned to forget him. All I need now is time to let my feeling towards him just fade away from my heart.

Family Reunion

Me and my cousin. We're both 17. Haha. Look alike or not??













This is my bro act cute and me ;P














James Bond post which are both my cousins.


















Children are always with poses.













This is me with my mom, aunty, uncle and cousin.













Siblings and cousins.


















Me with my uncles and aunties and cousins.













Uncle Charlie from singapore, Aunty Ai Ling from Miri, my mum and me.






Im really hopeless cause I didnt learn anything in this holidays. But never mind. Just forget about it. Holiday is enjoying myself. Why would I make myself so suffer thinking about studies. Haha.. Tonight I had an enjoyable night. My family, my grandparents, my uncle from Singapore and my aunty from Miri had come back to Kuching to spend their holiday. Will really miss them after they left.

changing ambition

Tonight my uncle from singapore, uncle Charlie come to my house and we have a chat about my future planning. From he, i cant denied that I really learn alot about life in this world. Real life. I planned to study hotel management. But from him, I learnt that hotel managing is really a tiring work. When people having holiday for sure I would be the most busy person in this whole world. No exact office hour at all. I choose hotel management cause I like meeting with different kinds of people. But he taught me that if I really like to meet with people, I can just join myself into association. I found out that his words really did make sense to me. He suggested to ask me to study accountancy and I promised him that I will think about this course. Accountancy course really fullfil my three wishes that are high paid job, not that tough to study compare to other courses like engineering, and last but not least is my future will be bright if I really study this course. But also of course, it depends on how much effort I've put while studying this accountancy course. Jus now about 12 am smth, I followed my brother go out to have supper with his friends. We eat porridge and just went back about 2 sharp. This is really a good experience for myself although it's a bit quite late going home at this time. But still worth the try. Hehehehe..oh ya my uncle charlie's email is csoh@uobkayhian.com. Will try email to him to ask for help about singapore universities.

my interest and ......future

The drama that i liked to watch the most is singapore drama rite now. Totally in love with it. In jus 2 days, I've finished watching one singapore drama. I jus donno how did I managed to finish it. Really keng leh. Besides that, I always been interested in watching grey's anatomy and ghost whisperer. Both were my favourites in starworld channel. But unfortunately, there's no more grey's anatomy in starworld which I have to spent my RM75 to buy three seasons of the show in Kenyalang. Its really worth it for me coz Im spending on sumthing that I liked to watch. Hehe... I tink it benefits me alot by watching this show coz I can learn smth abt biology and jus some general knowledge. Among my frens, im the only one who loves this show and that makes my frens dont understand why i like this show. Haha.. Oh ya.. melinda gordon is the main character in ghost whisperer. If i could be like her then i would be so happy to help the ghost to crossover. I liked to watch ghost movies a lot but im scare of the dark. It doesnt make sense rite.. I remembered i cried in my fren's house during her bday party coz her house suddenly blacked out. When i tink of it quite embarassed me alot. But a past is a past. Hehe.. now im jus planning for my future. Last nite i went to sleep at about 5 smth in the morning. I spend an hour plus tinking about my own future. I hope to abroad my studies to singapore but im afraid that i couldnt succeed to apply for singapore's scholarship. And i also hope that after singapore i can further my studies to some western countries that i liked to go like switzerland maybe if i take hotel management. Im rite now having financial problem so i might jus stay in the singapore to complete my studies or staying in kuching. Haiz.. really donno about it .. it makes me headache every time i tink of it.

BorInG

really in these holidays.. im totally so boring in the house. My crush didnt reply my msg. Fine coz i didnt really like him anymore.. hahahaha. I planned to study but really don't have the heart and interest to proceed on. I promise to myself that this week im going to finish reading all my history chapters that I haven read before in Form 4. Hope that this task will succeed but im not hoping much. Useless me. Haha. In this holiday, I dont really hold my friendship very strong. There's some frens backstabbing me i guess. Will try to check whether its true or not. If its true I also cant do anything. Jus keep quiet and sit down like an idiot. Hope that after this holiday everything goes fine. I planned to do this blog for myself is because Im totally too boring in the house and really want to shout out my problems. I dont expect my best friend to hear all my problems coz these might make them sick.